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twist to most of them.


The Shrinking Pumpkins?


The band we all know as The Smashing
Pumpkins
, has been recently nicknamed, The Shrinking Pumpkins (Rolling Stone
Magazine, issue 788-June 11, 1998; Greg Kot) due to the non-stop loss of band members
and band replacements.

During their Mellon Collie Tour, the band sadly lost touring keyboardist,
Jonathan Melvoin & was therefore forced with the decision to fire drummer, Jimmy
Chamberlin. Many of the Pumpkins� fans looked on at this as the end, however, many
saw a new beginning, as did Corgan. Granted, there was sorrow in this loss I�m sure, the
band found the strength to move on and continue a tour, which I was lucky enough to see
some of. Matt Walker, of Filter, was brought in to replace Chamberlin for the remainder
of the tour and I am happy to say, was awesome at doing so.

This new beginning for the Pumpkins started in 1996 with the production of
�Eye�, featured on the Lost Highway soundtrack. �Eye� had a
different sound that the fans were not expecting but soon grew attached to and loved.
Soon after the Pumpkins were to be heard on the Batman & Robin soundtrack (The End
is The Beginning is The End & The Beginning is The End is The Beginning). These
songs too, like �Eye�, were different than that which was expected, of course that is what
the Pumpkins are all about, they�ll work you into one style then blow your mind with
another. This is probably why they achieve more and more fans as they go. Corgan and
colleagues have learned how to reach different music levels all at once which is a talent
not gained by many.

Newly released is �Adore�, the new 16 track album which is a mixture of all the
music the Pumpkins have produced in the past. The first song to be released, Ava Adore,
has gained much popularity in the US and soon to be world wide for sure. Boosting the
popularity of the song and album as well, is the video for Ava Adore. The video and
song have an almost evil twist. The band members(Billy Corgan, D�arcy & James Iha)
are presented in the video as very mysterious and almost seem non-human. The make-up
makes all three members look dead(very pale, very lean), which has become very popular
with the presence of bands such as Marilyn Manson.



The Following Are Simply Lyrics To SP Albums....
 
Gish Lyrics

Siva

I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel

Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I inhale

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live - I inhale
I don't live

Rhinoceros

Planned a show
Trees and Balloons
Ice cream snow
See you in June

Could have known
I would reveal
Should have known
I would conceal your way

She knows, she knows, she knows
She knows, she knows, she knows
How's it
She knows, she knows, she knows

Colors show
After the moon
I should go
See you in June
Your way

Open your eyes
To these must I lie?

Bury Me

(boys, let's do it)

Bury me in love
Bury me in love

Shared your kisses, take your heart
Buried me and it hurts

I love my sister so [chain, unchain]
She don't smother me [chain, unchain, unchain]
I played the spades I know [unchain]
I'm a Jack of all trades
Would you bury me?

Once you see her
One inside [hide, hide]
Some things you just can't hide
If you see her
Tell me why [why, why]
Why won't she come outside?

If you see her
Tell me why [why, why]
Why won't she come outside?
Once you see her
One inside [hide, hide]
Some things you just can't hide

She will bury me
She will bury me

Crush

You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served

And this feeling shivers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love

You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare

And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love
Your love

Suffer

All that you suffer is all that you are
All that you smother is all that you are
And you're saying you're seeing, you're saying who you are
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are

All may say
I will dream
All may say

All of your struggles beneath your disguise
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover me

All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be
Taken down your only son and what he means to me
Your dream will be
To dream with me

Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you
To cleanse your life takes more than time
Take what you want
Take all of it

Too late to discover peace of mind
To late to recover

Snail

All your seven dreams
Look closer than you believe
As your things come undone
See you are the only one

Flower, seize the hour I did
I wait
Waiting, waiting for your wake
I'll wait

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorrow coming home
Sorrow, snail
What you wait for

Flower, the pain will wash away, away
When the sunshine climbs through your window
into your bed

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorrow coming home
Sorrow, snail
Down in my heart

Flower save the hours
Flower away

What you wait for
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower

Tristessa

Pledged your faith
my heart embraced
struggle to renew

Blurry mind
so hypnotized
fast enough who

Wonder where you are
Tristessa

Soul takes soul
as I take eye
I will wait for you

What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you

Hang on to your life
Tristessa

I love you true
Surely I do
I love you true
Surely I do
Surely I do
Surely I do

Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone?
Do you ever wake up far from home?
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Tristessa
Tristessa
Tristessa

Window Paine

Window paine
Around my heart
Shadows streak
Around my heart

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Wind blow shame
Around my heart
Shadows scream
Around my heart

What are you coming to
Stripped down to the bone?
Laughing, living on your own
All alone

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Daydream

(Vocals - D'arcy)
My daydream seems as one inside of you
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life

My daydream screams bitter 'til the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart

My daydream dream
My daydream
My daydream dream
My daydream

I'm going crazy

I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings

I have gone crazy
Motherf***in' crazy
I have gone
 
Siamese Dream

Cherub Rock


Freak out, give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
Cause they know
Who is righteous
What is bold, so I'm told
Who wants honey?
As long as there's some money?
Who wants, that honey?
Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with there wings glued on
'cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out

Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know,
Should have listened when I was told

Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
let me out



Quiet




Quiet
I am sleeping
In here
We need a little hope

For years
I've been sleeping
Helpless
Couldn't tell a soul

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Silent
Metal mercies
Castrate
Boys to the bone

Jesus
Are you listening?
Up there
To anyone at all

We are the fossils
The relics of our time
We mutilate the meanings
So they're easy to deny

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I don't trust you
I can't hear you

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Behind me
The grace of falling snow
Cover up everything you know
Come save me from the awful sound
Of nothing



Today

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known



Hummer

Faith lies in
The ways of sin
I chased the charmed
But I don't want them anymore

A fool's disguise
Take me away from you

Shame my tongue
Fat with promise all along
But when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I'd ever been

When you decide
That your life is a prize
Renew and revive
It's alright honey
It's alright, yeah

Happiness will make you wonder
Will I feel OK?
It scares the disenchanted
Far away

Yeah I want something new
But what am I supposed to do about you
Yeah I love you, it's true

Life's a bummer
When you're a hummer
Life's a drag

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Do you feel
Love is real?



Rocket

Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on

I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies

A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight

So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free of those voices inside me
I shall be free
I shall be free

ALTERNATE LYRICS

Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I hear you
I hear you return, come back again
Come on, come on

And when your days return
You'll find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart
And we'll rise

We'll rise again
I won't pretend, yeah yeah
We'll rise again
I won't pretend, yeah yeah, with you

'Cause when you find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart
'Cause when you find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart

You'll find yourself alone
To relax and fade away
You'll find yourself alone
To relax and fade away

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free, of me
Come on, come on
Come on, come on
Come on, come on
I shall be free
Let go that rocket inside of me



Disarm

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you



Soma






Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you
And she led me on, down
With secrets I can't keep

Close your eyes and sleep
Don't wait up for me
Hush now don't you speak
To me

Wrapped my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is your broken heart, your heart

So now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night

Didn't want to lose you once again
Didn't want to be your friend
Fulfilled a promise made of tin
And crawled back to you

I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When god sleeps in bliss

And I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone



Geek U.S.A.

Lover lover let's pretend
We're born as innocents
Cast into the world
With apple eyes

To wish wish dangerous
My dear delirious
To try and leave
The rest of us behind

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

Kiss kiss all of this
The hiss that we had missed
And understand what can't be understood

Sear those thoughts of me
Alone and unhappy
I never liked me anyway

If by chance
Or circumstance
We should fail
Don't be so sad

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

In a dream
We are connected
Siamese twins
At the wrist

And then I knew we'd been forsaken
Expelled from paradise
I can't believe them
When they say that it's alright

Words can't define what I feel inside
Who needs them?
Caught with this virus of my mind
I give in to my disease, of my needs
To my disease, of my needs

She really loves to break
Her dad says its OK
She really loves to break
And give it all away

Her ma says she's afraid
What more can she fake
She really needs to break
And give herself away

She gave it all away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
We really love the USA



Mayonaise




Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will



Spaceboy

Feel it
Break your bones
Mr. jones

Taste me
As I bleed
Taste my need

And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinning round my head
And any way you choose me
You'll break instead

Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
Please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
'cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks
I want to go home
I want to go home

And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong

We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong



Silverf**k

I hear your winter
I hear you rain
I've failed your summer ways
And I feel no pain

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

I hear you fade away
And I hear you crawl
I gave my life away
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel your pain

And she was my lover so sweet
And she was my angel
And what I've recovered of me
I put into a box underneath my bed

When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
Lie
Lie

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

[This take, don't give a f**k]



Sweet Sweet

Sweet sweet sweet sweet little agony
I don't know just where you've been
But I'll take take take
All that you have for me
In sin
Where are we going?

And they all want you to change
And they all want you to change



Luna

What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?
Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?
I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you and
It's a chance i'll have to take
And it's a chance i'll have to break
I go along
Just because i'm lazy
I go along to be with you
And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through
I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance i'll have to take
And it's a chance i'll have to break
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you
 
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